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(this is one of the few pictures of myself that i actually like)

bling bling bitch

im sure some of you are saying "Who is dis bitch and why is she on mah f-list?"

join me, won't you?

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Current Mood: tiredtired
02 April 2016 @ 04:18 pm
25 August 2013 @ 05:07 am

i keep trying to convince myself that my partying days are over.

but i just cant seem to let go...

sometimes i hate having to answer to someone, and i cant just just pick up and go to a rave when i feel like it. or down to jax to see my friends.

it sucks growing up... :(-
02 June 2013 @ 05:20 am
i have the craziest dreams sometimes. one night i had one where i found out that my parents haven't been 100% truthful when it came to my adoption, and that my dad was really my dad, but i was the product of an affair. it really makes me think they aren't being so forthcoming. they've said to me on more than one occasion that my birth parents maybe don't want to be found. i might be reading too much into that, but wouldn't you? especially when it's been said multiple times. what if it's something horrible, like my birth mom was raped? or maybe her parents were super high profile people and wanted a nice, neat closed adoption that no one would ever find out about.

i haven't found even one inkling that she (or my birth father) might be looking for me, and i don't blame her. being that young and probably forced into giving a piece of you away probably did a lot of damage, and not trying to find out if i've had a good life is her way of coping with it. but tonight, i was watching this show on oxygen, and it's about birth moms giving their babies up for adoption. it makes me wonder a lot of things: did she hold me at all when i was born? did she cry when she had to hand me over to the social worker? did she put headphones on her belly so i could hear music? did she talk to me at all? did she keep my blanket from the nursery? does she have any piece of me to remind her? has she thought about me at all over the past 33 years? why didn't she want an open adoption? did her parents send her to a maternity home so they wouldn't be embarrassed? what was going through her mind when she found out she was pregnant? did she give me a different name at birth?

i'm calling the courthouse and children and youth to find out how i can go about unsealing my records and getting her name. i don't know that'd contact her or try to reunite with her. i just want to know what she looks like, and if i look anything like her.

the laws in this state are stupid when it comes to adoptees getting their info. you have to jump through hoops and it's not always guaranteed that the birth parents will consent to you knowing who they are. it's ridiculous. i have a right to know these things.
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
12 January 2013 @ 11:37 pm
i had my 90 day review at work the other night. it went well. they seem pretty happy with me. i even got a 25 cent raise. :)

i do like my job, but the hours are starting to wear on me. i dont like not having a normal schedule. i feel like i cant get anything done because all i do is work and sleep.

im considering trying to find a normal 9-5....
01 January 2013 @ 12:31 am
im a little emotional about 2012 being over....it was a tough year.

hopefully 2013 goes better. things are already looking good, since i have a job and we have a roof over our heads.
Current Mood: tiredtired
02 May 2012 @ 04:58 pm
Originally posted by madcowre at Help Us Support Planned Parenthood
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Originally posted by lickbrains at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
Originally posted by awry at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012

"File-sharers, beware: By July 12, major US Internet service providers (ISPs) will voluntarily begin serving as copyright police for the entertainment industry, according to Cary Sherman, chief executive of the Recording Industry Association of America (RIAA). The so-called “six-strikes” plan is said to be one of the most effective anti-piracy efforts ever established in the US."

The article goes on to give details. After six notices, internet providers will decide to throttle a person's internet speed, or cut it off altogether. I don't know if they will crack down on torrents only, or if it is up to the internet provider. I get the sense it is up to the internet provider. So some people could get away with downloading non torrents, while others might get their internet service cut off. I urge you to click it and read, as we all know people who download.

No more downloading eps of your favorite shows for vidding, gifs, or fanfiction art. No more downloading screencaps possibly. I'm so sorry my friends. I don't even know if BT Guard will work to protect you, but I would google it if I were you. It is a professional service that supposedly can protect you from the invasive eyes of your internet provider.

Just, my friends, please make each other aware. Please be aware of the date JULY 12TH. Mark your calendar and double check with your internet provider by then. If you start receiving notices of downloaded activity, this is why. And your internet service could be throttled or cut off.

Fox News confirms this:

Youtube video explaining this:

ETA: Petition for RIAA and the Obama Administration: Stop ISPs from launching a massive copyright spying scheme this July 12th

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ETA: It's bad but it's not as bad as it's going to get in the future (as it's lookin'). I've had my internet cut a few times and, while frustrating, it usually comes back within a day or two. It's worth warning about though. Things may or may not get worse this coming summer. We'll see.
03 February 2012 @ 01:12 am
Who is your look-alike?

ive had more than one person tell me i have one, but i have yet to see her.