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11 November 2016 @ 06:01 pm
Is anyone still here?  
First post in a long time...

I think I can finally form some coherent thoughts about the 2016 election.

I had such hope.

I had such hope that sanity would prevail and people would see Trump for the personified evil that he is, but no. That didn't happen.

All the ideals I had about America that I'd been told growing up were crushed in this election. All the history books telling me how great America is and how we're the prototype for a free society was A LIE. This country is far more racist, bigoted and sexist that I could have ever imagined. We are not free. Not when the electoral college chooses our leaders for us. Not when we're being spied on by our own government even if we do nothing wrong. Not when people are enslaved by medical/student debt. Not when people are being paid low wages for longer hours of work. Not when people are having to work 2 or 3 jobs to barely scrape by to the detriment of their health and their families. Not when we are bombing people who have never done anything to us other than be a different race and/or religion. Not when people of color cannot interact with police forces without dying.

And after seeing the stories about hate crimes in the hours after Trump was declared president-elect, I've found I've been so naive about my fellow countrymen. It's a hard pill to swallow. I always try to see the good in people and give them the benefit of the doubt, but I now believe people are inherently evil and being a good person is taught.

The reality of it is, this country is not great, and it never has been. It was built on the backs of indentured servants stolen from their homeland or tricked into becoming one with the promise of freedom. It was built on top of the bones of an entire people (the First Nations) for the benefit of the white people who wanted to move west. This country has never been inclusive, and as long as we have people in the public eye, news networks and internet websites and radio shows all dedicated to scapegoating "the other," this country will never be inclusive of all peoples of all races, sexual orientations, genders, economic statuses, etc. As long as people are given a platform or avenue to keep others down, things will never change.

I cannot stomach this miscreant as president. Until Tuesday, I had my anxiety and panic attacks under control without medication. The days since then, I have been an absolute mess. My job is in jeopardy if the ACA is dismantled. I CANNOT be unemployed again, as many of you have read, it was the worst time of my life, and my mental state back then was a place I don't want to return to. I'm now having to go into therapy because I am terrified of what I'm going to have to live through in the next 4 years. As an empath, it's too much for me to handle. I will probably have to go back on my medication, even though it turned me into a zombie.

I know. tl;dr but I needed a place where I could talk about what I'm feeling post-election. I hope this helps any of my other friends who still use LJ if they are having the same feelings.

If you voted for Trump, get the fuck off my TL. I have zero respect for you and do not wish to associate with you any longer.

Let's expect the worst, but hope for the best.

Daniellelemmingpie on November 15th, 2016 02:32 am (UTC)
I'm still here. Voted for Clinton. Devastated and horrified every day all over again by the outcome of the election.
I'm glad you are on here writing.
.black.irish.juicybrisket on November 15th, 2016 08:50 pm (UTC)
i really have nowhere else to vent. =/

im highly apprehensive since the election. im triggered because i lost my job during the last republican admin, and subsequently lost my house, almost lost my car, lost my hair, and came pretty close to losing my sanity. i cant do it again.